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chapter 39

(Gerard's POV)

Mikey had another seizure and didn't wake up till late evening the next day. He is still very tired but won't go back to sleep, he say's that he doesn't like being stuffed up in his bunk all day but i know hes lying. Every time he even blinks his eyes shoot open again terrified before he relaxes and he all ways stays awake till some one else is in the bunk room with him. It's obvious that what he is seeing is Bob and that when he is dreaming it seems real and he may not live in his head but he needs to go to sleep. I may have to hold another band meeting with all of us inluding Bob and Green day. This can't go on, it's not just Mikey its the secrets and lie's friends should be open with each other thats what they allways told me and i kept to it even when i didn't want to. Doing this i realised talking about my problems really does help even just writing them down. Oh thats an idea i can get everyone a diary and we can all write an entry a day and at the end of the week we can share them and disscuss whats happening inside our own minds.

(Tre's POV)

Gerard is looking mightily pleased with himself i wonder why. Maybe he has thought up a really good recipie for cookies,yummie i like cookies, "Gerard can we make cookies" i blurted out. "Tre why do you want to make cookies for" Billie Joe asked "because Gee has a cookie face on". They already know im mental so the look they gave me is nothing i didn't expect "Tre what exactly do you meen by i have a cookie face on what are you insinuating" Gerard asked trying to look big and scary. "You look like you know a good cookie so me wanty to makey some cookiey oky dookey" i replied before jumping up and running into the kitchen.
This is when i learnt it's not a good idea to run in socks on tiled floor. I skidded across the floor and slammed into the wall, falling backwards bringing sevral pots and pans down with me all of which landed on my southern regions. "See thats what happens if you act like a baby" Mike laughed when he saw me lying there. "Owwy baby got a booboo" i mock cried causing more hysterical laughing from the others, even a smile ghosted across Mikeys face. Gerard and Mike lifted me to my feet and helped me stand straight without slipping again "can we all make cookies now and then go take them to Bobby please i'll be a good baby if we do and if we don't i'll scream and scream and scream untill im sick" i joked adding in a slight lisp to the last few words. "Go on then kiddo who else want's to make cookies and keep the resident monkey happy" Mike asked turning to the others "MEEEEEE I DO I DO I DO" both Way's screamed in unison. Ray didn't look to interested but seeing the eager look on Mikey's face got up and helped him over to join us. "So which is it, keep the monkey happy or bake cookies" Ray asked poking me in the stomach gently "BOTH cause then we can feed the monkey" Mikey giggled "hey im not a performing monkey ya know" i complained but that just started them of laughing again.

(Mikey's POV)

COOKIES, COOKIES, COOKIESCOOKIESCOOKIES, LOT'S OF COOKIES. Were making cookies yummy and then we get to go see Bobby. But first COOKIECOOKIECOOKIES NOW NOW NOW.
Damm i love cookies. I remember when me and Gerard used to make them with our grandma at weekends and more of the ingredients would end up on us then in the bowl, but it was fun so nothing mattered. I've never been much good at baking anyway thats why you got to have a laugh. I'm not normally even allowed near kitchen appliences, espcially not toasters because of the last time it happened it involved a fork me and a live current of electricity. Gerard found it so funny when i walked into the living area with my hair all charred and the fall melted. There was also the time i but the electric heater in the bath with me to warm up the water, thats when i learnt that water conducts electricity,straight to my bloody balls.
Any way back to COOKIES. "Gerard can we put icing on them and springles and jellies and choclate and" Frank interupted me "and SKITTLES". There was know way Gerard was going to get out of making them now so he and Mike held up there hands in surrender "okay fine but don't make to much mess and if any of it turns into a food fight....... I will eat all the cookies myself". NOOO not my precious cookies "we'll be good Gerard we promise" i told him because no one messes with Mikey Ways cookies.

(Mike's POV)

I am living with the insane. I swear the only sanity left on this bus is me, Gerard and Ray the others are just insane. Oh well if you can't beat them join them "okay how do we make cookies then" i asked. They looked at me as if i was completly stupid "with ingredient's dumbass" Tre replied. And he thought i was stupid "what sort of ingredients goofball" i countered "SUGARY ONES" Frank screamed. Oh christ i forgot how hyper Frank gets "oh hell no not to much sugar we're going to see Bob after and he won't want a bunch of hyperactive baby's running about the place". I feel like i actually am there father and by the looks of it so does Gerard, Ray on the other hand doesn't appear to be in the same world as us right now. I nudged his shoulder and he jumped back to life "go take a lie down we'll wake you when this slapstick routine is complete" i told him hoping that a little nap would cheer the poor sod up a bit. "Nah it's okay best be here incase they decided to eat each other when they pour the mixture down them selves" he explained, perhaps it was best if he stayed here then.

*1 hour later(meaning the cookies are baked)*

(Ray's POV)

I was right after all they did start a food fight. And im telling you one thing i am NOT clearing that up, although Frank will probablly try to lick it up in a minute seeing as he as allready licked Mikey and Tre and is now proceeding to chase Mike and Gerard around.
They decorated the cookies to look like themselves as the black parade and Billie made some of them in black and red as allways.
There were a few left over that went wrong that are being shared out between us before we leave. "Ray Mikey stole my cookie i want it back"Gerard screamed in my ear actually crying even though its just a cookie. "Ray Mikey ate my cookie tell him to give it back" i am going to scream if they don't act there age "Mikey don't steal cookies you are not the cookie monster" "yes i am" he argued. "also Gerard he can't give it back if he's already eaten it unless you want him to sick it back up again" Gerard made a move to speak. "Don't even think about it Gerard just eat mine okay and behave and oh my god TRE DON'T USE FRANK AS A BALANCE BEAM" im living in a mad house or should that be crazy bus. "Guys i'm going to bed don't make me come back and kill you all for waking me up" i barked before walking out joined by a chorus of "ooooooooooo some ones getting stresssy". i turned gave them the finger before slamming the door shut behind me.


sorry for crappyness guys but its now 5:30am and i have been writing since 3 summin or other more later hopefully maybe possibly if i get comments

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Chapter 40

(Bob's POV)

It's still there Bob you know it is that nagging feeling can't you feel it. Its not going to leave you untill its over you have to end it, it's for your own good. Every time you look at them you can see it there the pure hatred and resentment they feel for you. They don't love you look at Mikey he hasn't been to see you he doesn't love you anymore i bet he never did it was just pity, pity for you ya usless fuck.
They do love you Bob other wise they wouldn't have got you help would they. They could have just left your cold dead body lying there but they didn't. Mikey is ill he can't come here i bet he does want to come visit you but for his own safety they won't let him. Have you ever noticed how only a few of them come at the same time.
Why would they help you they probablly just got worried that they might get blamed for killing you or something like that. They were just being selfish remeber this Bob nobody likes you, everybody hates you,they are all out having fun without you. You will be alone forever.

(Billie Joe's POV)

Visiting time i see well judging by a nervous Mikey and over excited Frank and Tre (no change there then) and a silent Ray and Gerard. Wait a second where is Mike the daft git we have to leave now before the traffic. "Gee you seen Mike anywhere" i asked but he shook his head "okay i'll go look for him you guys wait outside" i told them before walking into the bunks. "Mike you in here" i called out "its time to go" something shifted in a bunk on the far side. Moving silently over to the curtains i wrenched them back to reveal Mike with his pants round his angles and his eyes shut tight. "Court red handed Micheal ol'boy" i laughed. His eyes shot open in shock "um uh hi BJ" he said nervously "not the best nickname to call me when i catch you wanking is it" i teased and he blushed. "So would you like some assistence with that slight problem of yours" i asked curious to his reaction "um uh so sorry um wha" he stumbled over his words i had to try hard not to laugh. "I said would you like some assistence dear boy" i asked again placing my hand up against his boxes which he had attempted to pull up. "You sure Bill you don't have to i can take care of it myself you know" he mumbled. I pulled his boxers off in reply and grasped his dick in my hand running my finger over the slit causing him to groan. I got down on my knee's infront of him and licked the precum of his tip before running my tounger down the underside before taking as much of his length as i could into my mouth. "Bill CRIKEY" he cried out as i hummed softly swirling my tounge around him. I use my hand to pump the base of his cock that i couldn't take into my mouth "ughnmphffBLIMEYgrrr" Mike growled as i quickened my pace causing him to scream out before releasing his sead into my throat. I licked every last drop of him up before pulling away and standing up "so how was that for my first Blow job" i asked. Mike attempted to reply but it didn't make any sense. I left him to pull himself together whilst i went out side.
"He will be coming in a minute hes just tidying himself up a bit" i told Gerard as i opened the door. He looked at me with a smirk on his face. "Maybe you ought to wear something a little more on the loose side babe i meen i know im hot and all but theres a time and a place" i looked down at my crotch and noticed what he was talking about. "Shit" i said and quickly ran back onto the bus and grabbed a jacket that was long enough and yet not to hot and walked back out again to see a very flushed Mike climbing into the car.

(Gerard's POV)

It is so obvious they just did some sexy buisness together. Every time they catch each others eyes they both turn crimson, its so cute. Another thing that made it obvious was Mikes loud screams of Billie Joes name and Bill's erection as came outside (no pun intended).
I had picked up the diary's i was going to give everyone. I think i'll hand them out at the hospital seeing as we will all be together. I just hope they agree to it because i hate all the lies between us i thought we knew everything about each other but its all lies we hardly know each other at all even my own brother kept secrets from me.
*a few mins later at the hospital outside Bob's room*
"Right okay you know the rules no madness from you to" i said pointing at Tre and Frank. "No pushing your self to far Mikey and Ray relax and Bill and Mike you better not have done it on my bunk" i said before turning and walking into Bob's room, not before noticing how embarresed they both were. "Hey Bobby how you feeling" i asked going over and hugging him, he made no move to hug back i guess he wasn't in the best of moods today. "So umm Mikey's come to see you and him Tre and Frank made cookies" i said. Bob turned round and looked at Mikey "hey Mikes i missed you how have you been" he asked him "Bobby i missed you to but thoose meanies wouldn't let me come see you" he whines and for the first time in a while we all laughed together as a family.

(Mikey's POV)

"Bobby i missed you to but thoose meanies wouldn't let me come see you" i cried hugging Bob tightly whilst we laughed. I have missed hugging Bob everyday so much he is so cuddly. "So really Mikey how have you been theese guys never answer when i ask" Bob asked "could be better but other than that im just fine and dandy how might you be my Bobby-bear" i replied lying on the bed with him. He wrapped his arm around me and i lay my head on his shoulder "im alot better cause your here Mikey im sorry really i am im so sorry" he cried. He burried his head in my hair trying to hide the fact he was crying "Bob don't be sad whats the matter" Ray asked moving his chair closer."Im sorry i really am i just don't know what to do" he cried "it won't go it won't leave me alone" he cryed pullling at his hair trying to block out what ever was wrong.

(Bob's POV)

It's going to happen Bob you can't hide from it you have to die cause if you don't there all going to die instead which is it to be. Your pathetic worthless life or theres when they have everything to live for. "I have to die, if i don't you will" i cried "I can't live i don't want to hurt you". They all moved closer to me i heard there chairs scrape across the floor "Bob you aren't going to hurt us and you can't die we need you please don't say that" Mikey begged tears flowing freely. "Don't you get it i want to die i wouldn't have done it if i didn't want to and you had to stop me why can't you just leave me to die" i screamed at them. Mikey tumbled off the bed and hit the floor "see i hurt him im sorry in really am just let me die" i begged.
It has to be now i have to end it. I smashed the moniter next to me and grabbed a shard of glass "im really sorry i love you im sorry" i sobbed jamming the glass in to my leg and wrist and letting the blood spray out like a fountain. Everything fades to black "Goodbye my love" i wisper.

(Gerard's POV)

I pushed the emergency button and nurses and doctors filled the room and we were shoved into the corner watching as they picked up Bob and lay him on the bed and rushed out the room. One nures remained " he has to go in for surgery imediatly we wll notify you of any changes" she said before leaving leaving us alone in a room covered in blood. Sprayed across us and the walks like grafitti.

i'm sorry guys really i am
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