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Sep. 3rd, 2008 04:57 pmChapter 41
(Ray's POV)
"No no no please. I can't take this anymore i want Bobby back" i cried sliding down the wall to the floor, not caring that it was covered in Blood. "I don't want him to die i need him" i cry louder. Billie Joe comes and sits beside me putting his arm round my shoulder "Ray none of us want him to die but we have to stay strong for him" he said. I didn't listen just shrugged him off me "I can't do that anymore though he was the one keeping me strong now i don't know what to do without him". I pull my knees up to my chest and cry into them my Fro hiding me from the others sight. "RayRay please don't cry please for us" Frank begged moving towards me but i just shoved him away.
Mikey was still lyeing where he had fallen and hadn't made any attempt to move. "Leave me alone go help Mikey" i yelled at the others and Gerard turned and looked at his little brother. "Mikey it's okay come on he'll be okay" he said pulling him up onto the chair next to the bed. His enitre front was covered in blood and his glasses had fallen off which Frank picked up and put back on him. Billie Joe took of his jacket and passed it to Gerard so he could wipe the blood off Mikey revealing a few cuts and bruises and a split lip. "Oh Mikey are you okay are you hurt anywhere else" Gerard asked applieing pressure to his lip. Mikey didn't answer he just stared at the blood splattered wall "Baby come on talk to us" Gerard asked a hint of urgency in his voice. Mikey appeared to be trying to speak is mouth was moving but no sound was heared "Mikey what is it what are you trying to say". He turned to look up at Gerard "Gee?" he asked "why does everyone want to leave me" he asked. It was heart breaking to here him say it and Gerard broke down and pulled Mikey to him "no one wants to leave you hunni no one does i promise" he told Mikey.
Both brothers sat together crying. Frank sat on the floor crying whilst Tre and Mike cried into each others shoulders leaving me to fall onto Billie Joes lap unable to cope anylonger.
*A Few Hours Later*
(Tre's POV)
I stood with Mike for what felt like years just crying and waiting for news on Bob. Time seemed to slow for us or everything around us sped up but what it was it felt awfull.
A doctor knocked on the door and walked in. Looking around at us wherever we were placed "excuse me sirs i would like to inform you that we managed to stop the bleeding in Mr Bryars leg and he will be out of surgery and brought back to this room within a few minutes but before that a cleaner will be here to clean up would you like to get cleaned up yourselves?". Thank fucking christ for that i thought he was a gonna i just didn't want to see Mikeys face if it really did happen or infact Ray who was still crying. "Mikey do you want to go get changed for when Bob wakes up" Gerard asked a very tired Mikey who just nodded into Gees chest eyes half closed "come on then baby lets get you back to the bus do you wanna walk" he asked him. Mikey was already asleep against Gerard warn out from crying "Gee i'll carry him back" Mike offered seeing as Ray didn't seem fit enough to do it himself "thanks" he said.
We walked through the hospital seeing crying children with broken bones and workmen with missing fingers or head injuries. Worried families sitting around loved ones beds as they slipped from this world, i hate hospitals.
Ray was being half supported half dragged by Billie Joe and Gerard back to the bus he was crying so much. I am actually kinda worried about him now he won't talk to us or even look us in the eye, poor guy.
Back on the bus i made coffee for everyone and then went to get changed. Mikey slept on the sofa so Gerard cleaned him up and put a clean t-shirt on him so he could go back out. Ray went into the bunk to get changed with Mike but Mike came back looking sad "He's collapsed against on his bunk crying he won't answer me so i left him be" he said before sitting down. Billie Joe and Gerard then went to get changed.
(Gerard's POV)
Ray was crying in his bunk i couldn't just leave him there. Billie Joe didn't seem to want to either so we both went to comfort him "Ray hunni you coming back to the hospital with us or do you want to stay here with one of us" i asked. He wasn't answering but did turn to us and climbed out of his bunk to come with us. He didn't stop crying though and he was hugging himself tightly "Oh hunni its okay he going to be alright i promise"Billie Joe said leaping at Ray when he saw how sad he was. "Are you okay " he asked but Ray didn't reply just continued to cry and hug himself not even hugging Billie back like he normally would have. "Come on RayRay lets get back to Bobby now yeh" i told him "unless you want to stay here with Mikey cause hes asleep.
Ray walked out of the bunks and went and sat with Mikey pulling his knees up to sit cross legged on the sofa. "Okay hunni you stay here and look after Mikes if you want anything we all have out mobiles with us" i said placing a blanket over Mikey. "Do you want one to" i asked handing up another blanket, Ray nodded and hugged me as i passed it to him.
I knelt down infront of him as the others exited the bus "Ray whats bothering you why won't you speak to us" i asked running my hand soothingly over his thigh. He bit down on his lip and his eyes darted everywhere but looking at me "babe i love you so much and it hurts that your not talking to me" i confessed to him and his eyes teared up again as they focused on mine. "Gee i'm sorry it's just this is all to much i don't know what to say i just can't cope with all this, first it was Mikey with all his problems and there not going to go away and then theres Bob he won't listen that we don't want him to die everythings so confusing. I thought life was suposed to be simple but its not it just gets worse and worse." Oh poor guy we should have noticed everyones attention was focused somewhere else and we ignored Rays problems "Ray im sorry look i had this idea i don't know if you want to but it might help" i said pulling a red and black diary out of my bag "i thought we could all right our thoughts, feelings and problems down in theese diarys and then we can help each other out i don't know if it will work but i thought it was worth a try" i explained handing over the book and a pen with Rays name on it. He looked up at me and smiled "Gee thats brilliant i think it may just work i love you so much" he said and i leaned up and kissed his cheek before standing up to leave. "Hey Gee" he called and i turned back round and he kissed me passionatly "i meen it you know i really do love you".
ok its crappy but i didn't have much time for this chapter its like been written in the odd 5 mins that i had spare so there you go more soon hopefully
(Ray's POV)
"No no no please. I can't take this anymore i want Bobby back" i cried sliding down the wall to the floor, not caring that it was covered in Blood. "I don't want him to die i need him" i cry louder. Billie Joe comes and sits beside me putting his arm round my shoulder "Ray none of us want him to die but we have to stay strong for him" he said. I didn't listen just shrugged him off me "I can't do that anymore though he was the one keeping me strong now i don't know what to do without him". I pull my knees up to my chest and cry into them my Fro hiding me from the others sight. "RayRay please don't cry please for us" Frank begged moving towards me but i just shoved him away.
Mikey was still lyeing where he had fallen and hadn't made any attempt to move. "Leave me alone go help Mikey" i yelled at the others and Gerard turned and looked at his little brother. "Mikey it's okay come on he'll be okay" he said pulling him up onto the chair next to the bed. His enitre front was covered in blood and his glasses had fallen off which Frank picked up and put back on him. Billie Joe took of his jacket and passed it to Gerard so he could wipe the blood off Mikey revealing a few cuts and bruises and a split lip. "Oh Mikey are you okay are you hurt anywhere else" Gerard asked applieing pressure to his lip. Mikey didn't answer he just stared at the blood splattered wall "Baby come on talk to us" Gerard asked a hint of urgency in his voice. Mikey appeared to be trying to speak is mouth was moving but no sound was heared "Mikey what is it what are you trying to say". He turned to look up at Gerard "Gee?" he asked "why does everyone want to leave me" he asked. It was heart breaking to here him say it and Gerard broke down and pulled Mikey to him "no one wants to leave you hunni no one does i promise" he told Mikey.
Both brothers sat together crying. Frank sat on the floor crying whilst Tre and Mike cried into each others shoulders leaving me to fall onto Billie Joes lap unable to cope anylonger.
*A Few Hours Later*
(Tre's POV)
I stood with Mike for what felt like years just crying and waiting for news on Bob. Time seemed to slow for us or everything around us sped up but what it was it felt awfull.
A doctor knocked on the door and walked in. Looking around at us wherever we were placed "excuse me sirs i would like to inform you that we managed to stop the bleeding in Mr Bryars leg and he will be out of surgery and brought back to this room within a few minutes but before that a cleaner will be here to clean up would you like to get cleaned up yourselves?". Thank fucking christ for that i thought he was a gonna i just didn't want to see Mikeys face if it really did happen or infact Ray who was still crying. "Mikey do you want to go get changed for when Bob wakes up" Gerard asked a very tired Mikey who just nodded into Gees chest eyes half closed "come on then baby lets get you back to the bus do you wanna walk" he asked him. Mikey was already asleep against Gerard warn out from crying "Gee i'll carry him back" Mike offered seeing as Ray didn't seem fit enough to do it himself "thanks" he said.
We walked through the hospital seeing crying children with broken bones and workmen with missing fingers or head injuries. Worried families sitting around loved ones beds as they slipped from this world, i hate hospitals.
Ray was being half supported half dragged by Billie Joe and Gerard back to the bus he was crying so much. I am actually kinda worried about him now he won't talk to us or even look us in the eye, poor guy.
Back on the bus i made coffee for everyone and then went to get changed. Mikey slept on the sofa so Gerard cleaned him up and put a clean t-shirt on him so he could go back out. Ray went into the bunk to get changed with Mike but Mike came back looking sad "He's collapsed against on his bunk crying he won't answer me so i left him be" he said before sitting down. Billie Joe and Gerard then went to get changed.
(Gerard's POV)
Ray was crying in his bunk i couldn't just leave him there. Billie Joe didn't seem to want to either so we both went to comfort him "Ray hunni you coming back to the hospital with us or do you want to stay here with one of us" i asked. He wasn't answering but did turn to us and climbed out of his bunk to come with us. He didn't stop crying though and he was hugging himself tightly "Oh hunni its okay he going to be alright i promise"Billie Joe said leaping at Ray when he saw how sad he was. "Are you okay " he asked but Ray didn't reply just continued to cry and hug himself not even hugging Billie back like he normally would have. "Come on RayRay lets get back to Bobby now yeh" i told him "unless you want to stay here with Mikey cause hes asleep.
Ray walked out of the bunks and went and sat with Mikey pulling his knees up to sit cross legged on the sofa. "Okay hunni you stay here and look after Mikes if you want anything we all have out mobiles with us" i said placing a blanket over Mikey. "Do you want one to" i asked handing up another blanket, Ray nodded and hugged me as i passed it to him.
I knelt down infront of him as the others exited the bus "Ray whats bothering you why won't you speak to us" i asked running my hand soothingly over his thigh. He bit down on his lip and his eyes darted everywhere but looking at me "babe i love you so much and it hurts that your not talking to me" i confessed to him and his eyes teared up again as they focused on mine. "Gee i'm sorry it's just this is all to much i don't know what to say i just can't cope with all this, first it was Mikey with all his problems and there not going to go away and then theres Bob he won't listen that we don't want him to die everythings so confusing. I thought life was suposed to be simple but its not it just gets worse and worse." Oh poor guy we should have noticed everyones attention was focused somewhere else and we ignored Rays problems "Ray im sorry look i had this idea i don't know if you want to but it might help" i said pulling a red and black diary out of my bag "i thought we could all right our thoughts, feelings and problems down in theese diarys and then we can help each other out i don't know if it will work but i thought it was worth a try" i explained handing over the book and a pen with Rays name on it. He looked up at me and smiled "Gee thats brilliant i think it may just work i love you so much" he said and i leaned up and kissed his cheek before standing up to leave. "Hey Gee" he called and i turned back round and he kissed me passionatly "i meen it you know i really do love you".
ok its crappy but i didn't have much time for this chapter its like been written in the odd 5 mins that i had spare so there you go more soon hopefully
