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Jul. 22nd, 2008 05:45 pmthis one has spanish in it from nearly every character but its my first language and its easy especially as some spanish words translate as many english ones if you dont understand just ask and i will translate sorry but im to tired to translate it now
chapter 17
Mikey's POV:
I slashed the knife deep across my skin i dragged it over and over again letting the blood flow from my body i ripped the skin. slash after slash after slash. Deep slits on both my wrists blood flowing crimson from my veins i piched at the fat hanging from my belly so fat so fucking fat i sat up on my knees and slammed my head against the wall "why allways me " i screamed in my head "why did i have to be like this " i hit my head harder and harder against the wall a lumpy bruise was beggining to form but i didn't stop i slammed harder blood now visible on the wall i ripped off my shirt and through it on the floor i cut the word "FAT" on the flab of my stomach i pulled at my now blood soaked hair my glasses had flung across the room i cried i screamed i didn't care who heard i didn't want to live anymore i felt so ugly i felt so wrong what had i done there probably out there now laughing with each other at how fat i was. I stood up and went over to the mirror and looked i didn't see me there i saw a monster the monster i had become i flung my head forward smashing against the glass which shattered i slumped to the floor and darkness spread over me.............................
Gerard's POV:
What the hell had just happened one minute i was kissing my brother i had sucked him off as he screamed for me to fuck him he had come deep in Franks mouth, we had lay there for a bit untill suddenly Mikey had shot up and ran into the bathroom. " AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" i heard Mikey scream from the bathroom "AHHHHHHHHHH" he was screaming and crying i could hear loud bangs and thumps coming from the room and the smell of vomit wafted from under the door. More screaming could be heard and Ray and Bob appeared at the door "whats going on in here" Ray asked worry could be heard in his voice when he noticed that Mikey was the only one absent from the room " MIKEY MIKEY OPEN UP" Bob yelled at the door as i tried and failed to open it "Bobby kick it down please theres something badly wrong" i pleaded with him. We stepped back as Bob ran at the door with all the fource he could muster the door caved in and swung from its hinges " OH MY GOD!!! Bob screamed when he saw Mikey lying there on the floor "Mikey MIKEY WHAT HAPPENED" i screamed rushing over to my little brother laying naked, bleeding and badly bruised "Mikes wake up baby please wake up don't do this to me please i need you" Ray collapsed next to him "whats he done this for why is he so intent on leaving me " Ray cried. Bob lifted Mikeys limp body from the ground and lay him on the table in the kitchen he wiped the blood from his wrists and wrapped bandages around them which soon became soaked in blood again "this is serious Gerard its bad really bad we might have to take him to hospital" Bob told me "NO he won't want to go to hospital when he wakes up he'll refuse treatment hes never like them after i was in that coma please just do something anything apart from the hospital" i begged i knew its what Mikey would want "fine but i need more bandages some antiseptic and a pillow " Bob demanded Frank and Ray ran off in search of the needed things whilst Bob cleared off more of the blood. When Bob washed the cloth over Mikeys stomach he saw the word carved in Mikeys stomach "FAT" it read "OH GOD GEE look at this why would he do that " "i have no idea i meen he had allways been self concious but never to this extreme i don't know what would have caused it unless. Oh god Bob im so sorry i didn't meen it it just felt right at the time i love you i allways will" i had realised what might have done it he had been sick before but what had happened earlier must have triggered something " Gee baby what are you talking about" Bob asked confused "Bobby im sorry but what happened was that when you went to bed and we were asleep on the sofa Mikey woke me up by kicking me onto Frank and then we decided we weren't tired anymore so we played 20 questions and asked the usual stuff but then we got bored of it and Frank was complaining so he kissed Mikey and then i kissed Frank and i know im sorry i shouldn't have done it i love you but then Frank was like talking about me and Mikey being hot and stuff like that so i said i would show him something really hot and i kissed Mikey and it felt so good so right i didn't care that he was my brother but when we pulled apart Frank was starring and had got really turned on so i was going to give him some assistence but he turned on Mikey and pulled away a cusion that was on his lap revealing he was really horny so we decided to sort him out first so i pulled off his tights and skirt and i sucked him off and Frank kissed him then Frank finnished sucking him off and we kissed and tasted Mikeys come in Franks mouth and whilst we lay there while Mikey got his breath back but all of a sudden he ran off into the bathroom and thats when he did this i think but i don't know why he was enjoying it" i finnished and waited for Bob to hurt me for what i had done "YOU ABSOULOUTE FUCKING IDIOT HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO HIM YOU KNOW WHAT HES BEEN THROUGH YOU KNEW FULL FUCKING WELL THAT HE WAS SELF CONCIOUS AND THEN YOU GO AND TAKE HIS CLOTHES OFF HIM INFRONT OF FRANK AND YOURSELF WHEN HE WON'T EVEN TAKE HIS SHIRT OFF INFRONT OF RAY HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO HIM. OK MAYBE HE DID ENJOY IT MAYBE YOU DID TO AND FRANK I DON'T CARE BUT THIS MIKEY WE ARE TALKING ABOUT HE CAN'T EVEN LOOK AFTER HIMSELF FOR 30 MINUTES HE ISN'T STRONG ENOUGH TO COPE ON HIS OWN HE NEEDED US TO CARE FOR HIM" Bob screamed at me and i burst into tears he was right it was my fault Mikey was weak in so many ways he did need looking after and i go and fuck it up, but wait he didn't mention me cheating on him " Bob i know its my fault it should be me lying on the table bleeding not him why him he shouldn't suffer but why aren't you angry with me for cheating on you" i cryed into Mikeys shoulder " because the reason i went to bed was because i couldn't bare watching all off your lives ruined by me anymore and Ray found me crying like a baby in my bunk and i couldn't speek to him i couldn't even face him and then he called me a usless baby and i knew he was right so i turned to face him and i saw how gorgous he was and i kissed him and he kissed me and i loved it i love him but i still love you and he still loves Mikey and he says he loves me and we decided to talk to you in the morning" now i was even more heartbroken not because of Bob and Ray but because he had cried because he thought he was ruining our lives "Bob you never ruined anyones life your our savior i love you". Ray and Frank then returned with the items and when they saw the carving on Mikeys chest Ray dropped the pillow and blankets on the floor and Frank let out a sob. This is my fault all my fault i did this and now my baby bro my lil Mikey my heroe my salvador had been so badly damaged in mind and body i didn't deserve him "Ray stop gaping and hand me that stuff he'll die if i don't stop the flow of blood get that arse of yours moving" Bob said in a way he was clearly trying to awaken Ray from his daydreaming state of terror Bob then went on to wrap his stomach and wrists in bandages and placed the pillow under his head " Frank get me some water and a cloth i want to clean his hair and some one find his glasses" Bob asked. Frank soon reapered with the water and Bob sat down next to him " wake up mi amor mi ángel agradable agradable" Bob wispered into Mikeys ear as he washed his blood soaked hair "déjeme ver sus ojos hermosos"he sighed. Bob could be so caring at times it was amazing but thats why i loved my bobbybear.
chapter 17
Mikey's POV:
I slashed the knife deep across my skin i dragged it over and over again letting the blood flow from my body i ripped the skin. slash after slash after slash. Deep slits on both my wrists blood flowing crimson from my veins i piched at the fat hanging from my belly so fat so fucking fat i sat up on my knees and slammed my head against the wall "why allways me " i screamed in my head "why did i have to be like this " i hit my head harder and harder against the wall a lumpy bruise was beggining to form but i didn't stop i slammed harder blood now visible on the wall i ripped off my shirt and through it on the floor i cut the word "FAT" on the flab of my stomach i pulled at my now blood soaked hair my glasses had flung across the room i cried i screamed i didn't care who heard i didn't want to live anymore i felt so ugly i felt so wrong what had i done there probably out there now laughing with each other at how fat i was. I stood up and went over to the mirror and looked i didn't see me there i saw a monster the monster i had become i flung my head forward smashing against the glass which shattered i slumped to the floor and darkness spread over me.............................
Gerard's POV:
What the hell had just happened one minute i was kissing my brother i had sucked him off as he screamed for me to fuck him he had come deep in Franks mouth, we had lay there for a bit untill suddenly Mikey had shot up and ran into the bathroom. " AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" i heard Mikey scream from the bathroom "AHHHHHHHHHH" he was screaming and crying i could hear loud bangs and thumps coming from the room and the smell of vomit wafted from under the door. More screaming could be heard and Ray and Bob appeared at the door "whats going on in here" Ray asked worry could be heard in his voice when he noticed that Mikey was the only one absent from the room " MIKEY MIKEY OPEN UP" Bob yelled at the door as i tried and failed to open it "Bobby kick it down please theres something badly wrong" i pleaded with him. We stepped back as Bob ran at the door with all the fource he could muster the door caved in and swung from its hinges " OH MY GOD!!! Bob screamed when he saw Mikey lying there on the floor "Mikey MIKEY WHAT HAPPENED" i screamed rushing over to my little brother laying naked, bleeding and badly bruised "Mikes wake up baby please wake up don't do this to me please i need you" Ray collapsed next to him "whats he done this for why is he so intent on leaving me " Ray cried. Bob lifted Mikeys limp body from the ground and lay him on the table in the kitchen he wiped the blood from his wrists and wrapped bandages around them which soon became soaked in blood again "this is serious Gerard its bad really bad we might have to take him to hospital" Bob told me "NO he won't want to go to hospital when he wakes up he'll refuse treatment hes never like them after i was in that coma please just do something anything apart from the hospital" i begged i knew its what Mikey would want "fine but i need more bandages some antiseptic and a pillow " Bob demanded Frank and Ray ran off in search of the needed things whilst Bob cleared off more of the blood. When Bob washed the cloth over Mikeys stomach he saw the word carved in Mikeys stomach "FAT" it read "OH GOD GEE look at this why would he do that " "i have no idea i meen he had allways been self concious but never to this extreme i don't know what would have caused it unless. Oh god Bob im so sorry i didn't meen it it just felt right at the time i love you i allways will" i had realised what might have done it he had been sick before but what had happened earlier must have triggered something " Gee baby what are you talking about" Bob asked confused "Bobby im sorry but what happened was that when you went to bed and we were asleep on the sofa Mikey woke me up by kicking me onto Frank and then we decided we weren't tired anymore so we played 20 questions and asked the usual stuff but then we got bored of it and Frank was complaining so he kissed Mikey and then i kissed Frank and i know im sorry i shouldn't have done it i love you but then Frank was like talking about me and Mikey being hot and stuff like that so i said i would show him something really hot and i kissed Mikey and it felt so good so right i didn't care that he was my brother but when we pulled apart Frank was starring and had got really turned on so i was going to give him some assistence but he turned on Mikey and pulled away a cusion that was on his lap revealing he was really horny so we decided to sort him out first so i pulled off his tights and skirt and i sucked him off and Frank kissed him then Frank finnished sucking him off and we kissed and tasted Mikeys come in Franks mouth and whilst we lay there while Mikey got his breath back but all of a sudden he ran off into the bathroom and thats when he did this i think but i don't know why he was enjoying it" i finnished and waited for Bob to hurt me for what i had done "YOU ABSOULOUTE FUCKING IDIOT HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO HIM YOU KNOW WHAT HES BEEN THROUGH YOU KNEW FULL FUCKING WELL THAT HE WAS SELF CONCIOUS AND THEN YOU GO AND TAKE HIS CLOTHES OFF HIM INFRONT OF FRANK AND YOURSELF WHEN HE WON'T EVEN TAKE HIS SHIRT OFF INFRONT OF RAY HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO HIM. OK MAYBE HE DID ENJOY IT MAYBE YOU DID TO AND FRANK I DON'T CARE BUT THIS MIKEY WE ARE TALKING ABOUT HE CAN'T EVEN LOOK AFTER HIMSELF FOR 30 MINUTES HE ISN'T STRONG ENOUGH TO COPE ON HIS OWN HE NEEDED US TO CARE FOR HIM" Bob screamed at me and i burst into tears he was right it was my fault Mikey was weak in so many ways he did need looking after and i go and fuck it up, but wait he didn't mention me cheating on him " Bob i know its my fault it should be me lying on the table bleeding not him why him he shouldn't suffer but why aren't you angry with me for cheating on you" i cryed into Mikeys shoulder " because the reason i went to bed was because i couldn't bare watching all off your lives ruined by me anymore and Ray found me crying like a baby in my bunk and i couldn't speek to him i couldn't even face him and then he called me a usless baby and i knew he was right so i turned to face him and i saw how gorgous he was and i kissed him and he kissed me and i loved it i love him but i still love you and he still loves Mikey and he says he loves me and we decided to talk to you in the morning" now i was even more heartbroken not because of Bob and Ray but because he had cried because he thought he was ruining our lives "Bob you never ruined anyones life your our savior i love you". Ray and Frank then returned with the items and when they saw the carving on Mikeys chest Ray dropped the pillow and blankets on the floor and Frank let out a sob. This is my fault all my fault i did this and now my baby bro my lil Mikey my heroe my salvador had been so badly damaged in mind and body i didn't deserve him "Ray stop gaping and hand me that stuff he'll die if i don't stop the flow of blood get that arse of yours moving" Bob said in a way he was clearly trying to awaken Ray from his daydreaming state of terror Bob then went on to wrap his stomach and wrists in bandages and placed the pillow under his head " Frank get me some water and a cloth i want to clean his hair and some one find his glasses" Bob asked. Frank soon reapered with the water and Bob sat down next to him " wake up mi amor mi ángel agradable agradable" Bob wispered into Mikeys ear as he washed his blood soaked hair "déjeme ver sus ojos hermosos"he sighed. Bob could be so caring at times it was amazing but thats why i loved my bobbybear.
