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chapter 15

Ray's POV:

After the movie had ended Gerard had fallen asleep on Mikey's lap who had fallen onto my lap asleep whilst Frank leant against them. The only ones left awake were me and Bob who was sitting resting his head on his knees stairing at the ending credits of the movie, he looked diffrent in a way i didn't regognise it didn't appear to be a physical change but the atmosphere around him appeared to change that he seemed troubled and lost in his own thoughts. Im pretty sure he winced as if in pain occasionly i thought it best to leave him be and hope that he can sort his problems by himself or maybe they would sort themselves but he didn't look like he wanted to be disturbed at this very moment. I reached for the remote to change the channel to something interesting and as i was flicking through the channels Bob stood up and went into the bunk room i thought perhaps he needed some time alone, we all did from time to time so i just carried on watching tv for a bit before i decided i was tired and wanted to go to bed also so i carfully pushed Mikey off of me and walked into the bunk. Bob's curtain was drawn so i presumed he was asleep so i put on my pyjarmas and climbed into my bunk i lay there for a while just thinking about random things as i did every night as it helped me sleep when i heard a faint sobbing coming from the bunk above me, i knew it was Bob because he was the only one in the room apart from me but i couldn't believe i was hearing him actually crying he had been alot quieter than normal even for him. I climbed back out of my bed and stood up and pulled back the curtain of his bunk, he was lying facing the wall with the covers pulled over his head and knees were tucked into his chest it was a pitaful sight "Bob whats the matter" i asked him and he went rigid when he realised i had heard him and was now standing behind him "its ok Bob i won't tell anyone trust me but whats up" he still didn't move he just continued sobbing into his duvet "Bob please talk to me whats the matter" still no reply "Bob you have to talk about this at some point now turn around and stop being such a baby" i knew that was harsh and completly uncalled for but i was hoping it would get a reaction.

Bob's POV:

Ray had heard me crying why can't he just leave me alone its better if they just forget me im no good to them its my fault that they lost contact with there parents its my fault that they now had no home to go to, they should all hate me but they don't which just makes me feel worse because i knew they were all hurting even Ray who still claimed not to care but they didn't want to show it all because the wanted to stay strog for me. Ray was now demanding i talk to him but i couldn't even face him if i turned round i would only be able to see the hurt and hatred in his eyes "Bob you have to talk about this at some point now turn around and stop being such a baby" Ray suddenly yelled at me. That just made me feel worse and i cryed harder not because it hurt but because he was right i was a baby i was a worthless piece of crap i had ruined there lives i had split there family i didn't deserve them as friends they were so kind and thoughtful to me and i cock it up. "Bob if you don't turn round and face me right now im gunna drag you out of that bed and force you to talk" i had to answer now cause if he got any louder the others would awaken and they'd be here yelling to "Ray go away please i just want time to think" i was hoping he would just leave but no such luck "Bob i am not going untill you tell me why you are crying" "Ray i can't its not right for me to burden you with my problems espcially after the trouble ive caused" i sobbed "Bob what the hell are you on about you haven't done anything" why did he have to act so oblivious to his surroundings "yes i did i caused you to loose your family " Ray was about to cut in but i stopped him "and don't say you don't care because i know you do i can see it in your eyes stop acting tough Ray nothing good will come of it " Ray sighed "ok so maybe i am upset who wouldn't be but i have a better family i have you and the others and we will allways be together no matter what as do you and we don't want you getting upset over spilt milk and if you don't stop feeling sorry for yourself im gunna kick your arse" i smiled at that and hugged him "thanks Ray" i sobbed into his shoulder "its ok Bob your a mate". I pulled back and cupped his face in my hand he did the same "no Ray i meen it thank you so much for everything i don't know how i can repay you" i stared deep into his eyes and i pulled his head closer to mine and our lips brushed against each others he didn't pull away so i kissed him again with a little more force. It felt so right kissing him as he opened his mouth slightly and let my tounge explore his mouth it felt amazing kissing him it was filled with passion and fire and i loved it but then i remebered Gerard he was my boyfriend and Ray had Mikey he appeared to realise that at the same moment and pulled away "im sorry Ray i don't know what came over me im sorry" "no don't be sorry its my fault to " i looked up at him into his eyes the fire and passion was still there and i still had butterflys in my stomach "so what happens now" "i don't know what did you feel" Ray asked me "it felt so right Ray but i still love Gerard but i think i love you to and now i don't know what to do im sorry" "it felt right for me to but i love Mikey aswell as you now im just confused" ok we weren't going anywhere we didn't know what to do though "Ray i love you so much tell me what to do " "Bob we can't do this i love Mikey you love Gerard and we can never be together unless" i interupted "unless what Ray tell me" " we could allways talk to them about it " i thought about it for a second it was a good idea it may work or it may go terribly wrong " we could try that tommorow but for now let them sleep they won't know what is going on in here" i told him pulling him into another kiss and lifting him onto the bed.

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chapter 16:

Mikey's POV:

I awoke on sofa with Gerard on my lap and Frank at my feet, it was late so i assumed Ray and Bob had gone to bed and thought we were to tired and comfortable to be moved. I lay there waiting got gerard to get off me as my legs were numb, i kicked out but he wasn't waking so i booted him in the ankle "get off me lard arse i wanna get up" that got him moving "uh what the fuck was that for" Frank stirred and stretched his limbs out " how long have we been lying here" " dunno must have been a while now though as the movie is over and switched off" "ah well im not tired anymore lets do something" Frank stated bouncing up onto the sofa inbetween us "i don't know how about we just talk its been a while" "yh thats a good idea or we could play 20 questions" i looked at Gerard in confusion i had no idea what he was on about " you know, when we ask each other 20 questions and we have to answer truthfully" then it clicked we used to play this as little kids but allways end up getting distracted by something else " ok call well play that who wants to be asked first " we looked between us for a second then Frank spoke up " Gerard should go first it was his idea" "ok fine but be nice nothing embarresing" he warned us but me and Frank just exchanged sly looks " ok question 1: have you ever had sex with anyone?" Frank asked him "hey i said no embaressing stuff" cried Gerard " you still have to answer its the rules" " okay i know truth is no i haven't what about you guys" Frank looked shocked not realising that we were asking each other the same 20 questions " umm nope me neither i want my prince charming" i awwed at that i never thought Frank could be the romantic he turned out to be " Mikey what about you" " no i haven't you already know i haven't i'd never even been kissed before Ray" i blushed deep crimson and Gerard giggled.
"Quesion 2 when did you start to realise you were gay and in your case Mikey that you were a crossdresser and gay " Gerard asked " i first though about it when i was 14 when i was out with friends and i noticed that the only thing about girls i liked was there clothes and that i fancied my best mate" i confessed "i think its been kinda obvious that i was gay since i was born" " agreed but i think i realised it when i was 14 aswell when i was in high school and i kept staring at a cute guy in school and i was allways called the emo fag and you already know what they did to me after that" maybe we should have been more carful with what we asked as it had brought back bad memories for Gerard from his high school years when he had been beaten badly and had been in a coma for a few days and then the boys that did it got away with it with not even a warning and Gerard had never recovered from it properly.
"Question 3 have you ever dated a girl" i asked them even though the answer was obvious "no" "nope" "nadda" we all replyed.
"Question 4 would you ever consider having a threesome or maybe more" a quesion obviously asked by Frank " i have never considered it but i think it is seriously hot" i replied in all honesty " agreed" Frank and Gee replied.
"Question 5 i cant think of any more questions why are we playing this" i asked them cause it was really boring now "yeh im all out of personal questions and there not fun unless they embaress the other person" Frank replied " so what we gunna do then" i asked "SKITTLES" Frank screamed in my ear " that is your answer to everything so NOOOOOOOO" i screeched back "im sowwy Mikey i'll be a good boy from now on" Frank replied in a childs voice " hug now" he asked again before jumping on me and hugging me till i fell backwords "DOG PILE" Gerard screeched and jumped ontop of us both "get off me you fat fuck i can't breathe" i yelled out arms flailing trying to escape from underneath them " an who just grabbed my arse" i squeeled when some one gave my arse a quick pinch " me cause you have a very nice arse" Frank answered no embarresment in his voice he then got off me i sat down and he sat next to me "i think everything about you is nice more that nice even beautiful possibly stunning" Frank told me. I blushed because no one had ever complimented me like that except Ray and Gerard and they new i never believed them as i was self concious of my body and didn't even take off my top infront of them " i meen it Mikey i really like you more than as friends i know you have Ray but please kiss me " ok now i was blushing beetroot i knew i had Ray and that i was betraying him but i leened forward and softly pressed my lips to Franks smooth and so soft lips i let his tounge enter my mouth and i could taste him he tasted so good and i could smell the sweet scent of his colonge it felt like heaven kissing him " hey Frank get off my brother and stop molesting him" Gerard told him "stop being a spoil sport and im not molesting him im mearly confessing my undying love for him would it make you feel better if we let you join in " Frank retorted with a smirk on his face i looked over at Gerard to see fire in his eyes, he stood up and walked over to us and sat inbetween us he leaned into Frank and kissed him passionatly on on the lips. Frank pulled away "that was seriously hot both of you are amazing so sexy so alike in many ways " Frank really had a knack for making me blush deep deep crimson "if you want to see something hot whatch this" Gerard told him he then turned round to me placed his hand at the back of my neck and kissed me i was in total shock this was my brother kissing me with such force i felt so wrong he was my brother kissing me and it felt so good so perfect. Gerard's other hand moved up to my thigh and i could feel a warm feeling in my crotch area oh please god to don't let me get a hard on from my brother, shit he was rubbing up right to my crotch now oh please don't go higher he can't know i was turned on by this when he was just trying to impress Frank. He broke the kiss and pulled away and turned back to Frank who was gaping at us i couldn't look at Gerard i had to pull a cusion over me as he would be able to see the buldge through the tight material of my mini skirt the only other give away was my flushed cheeks " so what did you think of that " Gerard asked Frank who was still starring wide eyed at what he had seen then i caught site of what Gerard was smirking at Frank had a bulging hard on aswell " um u..uh wow that was hot" " well i can tell you enjoyed it " Gerard told him and reached forward and cupped him through the fabric of his trousers Frank let out a throaty groan " oh god Gee that feels good but maybe we both ought to see to your brother first i think he needs a little special assistance" Frank grinned and moved over to me pulling away the cusion "how did you know that " i asked him i meen he was watching the kiss not our crotches wasn't he "well your bright red and why have a cusion on you lap unless your hiding something so anyway would you like our assistance or not cause im sure Gerard would like to see if you are similar in other departments aswell " oh god Frank was stroking my thigh and Gerard was kneeling infront of me with a burning passion in his eyes "please Gee do something fuck me if you want" i cried the pleasure of Frank an the sight of Gerard was to much to bare. "What ever you want baby bro but tonight i will not fuck you it is not my place to take your virginity that is for Ray and i can tell you are not ready so lets have a bit of fun tonight " Gerard then reached up my skirt and slid down my tights and underwear he hooked the skirt up to my hips releasing my cock from the tight fabric he then pulled me down and kissed me, his tounge deep my mouth i groaned against his lips "please Gee i need you to do something please stop teasing me" i begged. he complied by reaching down abd ghosting his breath over my aching cock and blowing softly on the slit "Gerard please " i started but Frank placed his lips to mine and i was lost in the sensation of Gerard deep throating me and Frank kissing me it felt better than anything ive ever felt before i didn't even care that Gee was my brother anymore or that Frank was my best friend this was to perfect "AHHH GERARD uuuhhhhh mmhm" i groaned as i hit the back of his throat he then wrapped his hand around the base of my cock and Frank took his place and started licking the underside of my length and on the sensitive skin of my thigh i screamed out as i came deep in Franks mouth and my come trickled down his throat as he swallowed he leaned forward and kissed me and let me taste myself mixed with the sweetness of Frank he then kissed Gerard letting him taste the outcome (no pun intended) if the pleasure he had caused me. I sat there for a few minutes panting untill i regained the use of my limbs and was able to sit up i looked down at my half naked body never before had i let some one see me with no clothes on and i suddenly felt self concious again and i felt that sick feeling as i saw my fat hanging off me like a balloon i grabbed my clothes and ran into the bathroom locking the door and once again emptying the contents of my stomach in the toilet bowl and i reached for my pen knife again i was so fucking predictable but i didn't care anymore i had just shown them how much of a hideous fat fuckin freak i am.

ok guys i know whats gunna happen next but my dad is almost here so i can't write it at the moment but when he goes out again later i will write it up as im enjoying this story as before i started this i couldn't spell at all or use punctuation and because of the kind words of Frankmonster (i don't know if thats right she wrote Freak) i have got tuiton to learn as all my teachers had given up on me even though they new i had a good if slightly disturbing imagination i just couldnt put it on paper