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Jul. 17th, 2008 01:33 pmchapter 13
Gerard's POV:
It was the first day of the proper tour as out first gig was tonight and nerves are running high Mikey hasn't spoken at all, Frank well he's just looking forward to jumping and being typical Frank, Ray was practicing in the studio area trying to make everything perfect even though his playing already was perfect, Bob was playing video games trying to keep his consontration levels up and i was just relaxing and waiting for my mum to call as me and Mikey were going to tell her today about being gay and Mikey's fashion choice's i was sure it will be fine out mum allway's told us just to be ourselves and to express it in anyway we want.
Mikey's POV:
Im really nervous and i have no idea why we have played on stage millions of times and never been this nervous, i thought it might be about mum calling but she wouldn't do anything for me to feel nervous about she wouldn't do anything like bob's mum did she was allways more than understanding of me and Gerard.
After what had happened to Bob when he spoke to his mum we had all made a promise to tell our parents about being gay before our first show just to show Bob that we support him no matter what but we were still nervous and had each left it till the very last minute to do it i realise now maybe it wasn't the best of ideas as the tension on the bus was styfiling an almost unbearable no one was looking at anyone else and we weren't talking either but hopefully that was going to end soon as we had a sort of rota of how the day would go, we would wait for mine and Gee's mum to call then Ray would call his parents and then finally Frank because that way we could all sit together and support each other because after we had told out parent's we were going to tell the fan's we had already told our manager and the rest of the crew and they were more than supportive of us and they had all agreed that if we felt we were ready it was best to tell the fans i was even going out in the outfit i bought the other day just to show i am who i am and if you don't like it you can fuck off its my life i'll do what i damm well want with it and if that meen's dressing as a girl then that is what i shall do im the one thats gotta wear it.
Ray's POV:
I was trying to perfect a new song we were planning on performing for the first time this night, it didn't have a name yet, well it did but we weren't going to tell the fan's just yet just let them guess, i just couldn't seem to get it right i wasn't getting anything right today i was nervous and i just felt like bashing my head with something. The main reason i was nervous was because of i hadn't spoken to my parent's in a while and ringing them up out of the blue to give them the news that there son is gay i felt might not go down to well but it had to be done for Bob's sake mainly and to be honest if they didn't like it i don't care i have my friends there my family to and i have Mikey thats all i could ever ask for better than the ones i love.
Frank's POV:
Everyone was so quiet it was kinda funny as a quiet atmosphere allways make's me even more hyper than normal much to the dismay of the others as i couldn't help but speed around the bus knocking things over tripping over them and the braking something else which made them just scowl at me and me laugh even harder but i kinda regretted it when Mikey started crying because the tension had got to much and i really wasn't helping and then i got a lecture off Gerard and Bob saying thay i better shut up now or they'll chain me up outside like a miss behaving dog and that if i ever upset Mikey again that i would suffer for it they then went and sat down on either side of Mikey while he cried wrapped there arms around him and glared at me waiting for me to apologise to him "sorry Mikey i can't help it you know what im like one skittle would be enough for me to run a marathon " "its ok Frank im just nervous yeh know and i don't know why" Ray stroked Mikey's hair as if to say that everything would be fine and Gerard held him close and they looked like they were when they were children Gerard hugging Mikey after he had dropped his ice cream on the floor, this just made me feel worse i hated seeing my friends cry but it was even worse that it was me that had caused it. I thought now was the best time to make my exit so with a quick glance at Bob to see why he hadn't said anything he quickly looked up gave me an evil look and then went back to his game.
Bob's POV:
I just needed something to distract me from everything else it was my fault for all the nerves and tension they were doing this for me even though i don't think they were ready to. I didn't want to see there feeling's hurt just to make me feel good i wasn't worth that there happiness was the only important thing to me. I was playing on the Xbox and i didn't really know what was going on around me i didn't want to it would only make me feel worse than i already did. I would occasionaly notice somethings around me like Frank destroying everything around him like the tazmanian devil and then i noticed Mikey brake down into tears and Ray and Gerard jump up as Frank jumped back and they both yelled at him for upsetting Mikey this was my fault i was causing all this friction between friends i was piling so much pressure on Mikey and he couldn't take it and Frank really wasn't helping it angered me to see Frank apologise then whizz off again he turned to me and i glared at him momentarlly and then i went back to my game as Ray and Gerard carmed Mikey and told him everything would be allright but i had this gut feeling that not everything would be i was certain something would go wrong it was horrible to think and i didn't dare share my thoughts with the others.
Oh god i just looked at the clock it's almost 3 Gerard and Mikey's mum will be calling soon we had agreed to gather together on the couch and they would each use the phone in turn to face the ultimate judge that was there parent's.
Gerard's POV:
We are all gathered on the sofa as mum will be calling any minute i had Bob sitting next to me with Mikey on the other and Ray sitting next to him and Frank sitting on the other side of Ray. This was going to be a very difficult time for all of us.
"ring ring ring ring"
oh god its time
"ring ring ring"
"hello Mum"
"hey Gerard is Mikey there with you"
"yes your on loud speaker so you can talk to both of us"
" ok hey hunni"
'hi mum" Mikey replied
"mum me and Mikes both have something to tell you"
"ok but im guessing since you never both talk to me at the time that you are about to tell me that you are gay"
'yes how did you guess"
"ive suspected it for quite some time and im happy for both of you"
frank started giggling at how she had guessed. i through a pillow a him to shut him up.
"thanks mum but we have something else to tell you to its about Mikey"
" what is it darling"
i looked at Mikey to see wether he was going to say it but i don't think he was so i decided to do it for him
"umm well Mikey only told us a few days ago and we agreed its time to tell you for his sake more than anything'
"what is it is he ok"
"he's fine don't worry it's not that its the fact that Mikey wishes he was a girl"
"how do you meen he wishes he was a girl"
"i meen he likes to wear girls clothes, cross dressing you know"
" well im not sure i approve of that no infact im certain i don't Mikey you are a boy i don't mind you being gay not in the slightest but if you ever want to come home or see me and your father again you can not do this"
" but mum you allways told us to be ourselves and that is what hes doing"
"i don't care Gerard if he want's to stay my son then he can not be a filthy tranny you may come home but he cannot"
"if you don't except Mikey for who he is i don't want to see you again"
"fine i guess this is goodbye then"
'click"
i can't believe that, after all she had told us she goes back on her word and does this i was furious but my thoughts were interrupted by Mikey crying heart renching tears " Gerard why did she do that i want my mum back i want my mummy" i'd never heard him beg for her before i hadn't heard him call here mummy since he was 4 " Mikey im sorry, it'll get better i promise she'll change her mind come here" i pulled him into a hug " but i want my mummy back why did she do it Gee why i want my mummy" this had been to much for him way to much i was crying to now it wasn't from what she had said it was the fact that Mikey poor sweet little Mikey was begging for his mummy when i couldn't do anything to stop him i couldn't make her accept him I would never forgive her for hurting Mikey like this never.
Bob's POV:
Hearing Mikey beg for his Mum as he was held tightly by Gee who was also crying i realised this was my fault i was splitting up familys i had destroyed Mikey he admired his parent's so much and did everything they said and now they were no longer part of his life and it was all my fault and i couldn't even look at Gerard the one think that made him happy was seeing his brother happy and it was killing him to watch his brother cry and it was killing me to watch them both cry. I looked over had Ray who had tears falling down his cheeks and there was Frank who was just staring to much in shock to even cry i watched as Ray reached out to Frank and pulled him closer as he also put his arm over Mikey's back as he cried.
Ray's POV:
After a long time of carming Mikey who was still sobbing into Gerard's chest i decided it was time for me to face my doom i dialed my home number and let it ring.
"ring ring ring"
"hello"
"hi mum"
"oh hello Ray i haven't heard from you in a while"
"i know sorry but ive been busy"
"to busy to call home pfft any way what is it that you want as you must want something to call so unexpectedly"
"umm well i wanted to tell you something well umm im gay"
"what"
"im gay"
"fucking faggot"
"fuck you then"
"click"
i hung up on them i didn't care if that's what they thought that was there problem. "im sorry Ray" Frank said "its ok Frank i don't care ive still got all of you" "course ya have".
Bob's POV:
Now Ray had no one left it was all my fault he was saying he didn't care but i could tell deep down he did i could see the hurt in his eyes as Frank reached for the phone he gave me a weak smile and then turned away, why did i have to cause such pain for my friends.
Frank's POV:
My turn to call now despite what had happened to Gee Mikey and Ray i wasn't worried in the slightest my mum had never cared as long as i was happy then she was.
'ring ring ring'
"yo mum"
" hello Frankie darling how are you"
"im good mum how are you"
"im fine thanks for asking"
" good good i was just calling to tell you that im gay"
"fine by me Frankie is there anyone special i should no about"
"not at the moment mum but i'll tell you when there is though"
"good boy Frankie have fun on stage tonight don't get to badly injured"
"i won't mum, love you"
" love you to Frank ring again soon"
" i will bye "
"bye"
"click"
well that went well even better than i expected i couldn't help but have a beaming smile on my face i was sad for what had happened to the others but i was happy that my mum didn't mind and wanted to no if i had found my prince charming (if only) " come on guys its over with now you can move on if they don't like it tough we are a family what more can you ask for" i yelled out Ray looked up " he's go a point we are all family and we love each other we care for each other and today has proved that don't you think i meen we've had a fall but we are still closer then ever and we can get through this together and nothing is going to put us down now come on get up lets get ready to rock" "yeh" we all chourused together " group hug" i yelled and we all piled together hugging each other tightly "ok ok enough with the hugging i think i broke a rib" Mikey yelled and we all laughed loudly. This was the start of a whole new era for My Chemical Romance.
Gerard's POV:
It was the first day of the proper tour as out first gig was tonight and nerves are running high Mikey hasn't spoken at all, Frank well he's just looking forward to jumping and being typical Frank, Ray was practicing in the studio area trying to make everything perfect even though his playing already was perfect, Bob was playing video games trying to keep his consontration levels up and i was just relaxing and waiting for my mum to call as me and Mikey were going to tell her today about being gay and Mikey's fashion choice's i was sure it will be fine out mum allway's told us just to be ourselves and to express it in anyway we want.
Mikey's POV:
Im really nervous and i have no idea why we have played on stage millions of times and never been this nervous, i thought it might be about mum calling but she wouldn't do anything for me to feel nervous about she wouldn't do anything like bob's mum did she was allways more than understanding of me and Gerard.
After what had happened to Bob when he spoke to his mum we had all made a promise to tell our parents about being gay before our first show just to show Bob that we support him no matter what but we were still nervous and had each left it till the very last minute to do it i realise now maybe it wasn't the best of ideas as the tension on the bus was styfiling an almost unbearable no one was looking at anyone else and we weren't talking either but hopefully that was going to end soon as we had a sort of rota of how the day would go, we would wait for mine and Gee's mum to call then Ray would call his parents and then finally Frank because that way we could all sit together and support each other because after we had told out parent's we were going to tell the fan's we had already told our manager and the rest of the crew and they were more than supportive of us and they had all agreed that if we felt we were ready it was best to tell the fans i was even going out in the outfit i bought the other day just to show i am who i am and if you don't like it you can fuck off its my life i'll do what i damm well want with it and if that meen's dressing as a girl then that is what i shall do im the one thats gotta wear it.
Ray's POV:
I was trying to perfect a new song we were planning on performing for the first time this night, it didn't have a name yet, well it did but we weren't going to tell the fan's just yet just let them guess, i just couldn't seem to get it right i wasn't getting anything right today i was nervous and i just felt like bashing my head with something. The main reason i was nervous was because of i hadn't spoken to my parent's in a while and ringing them up out of the blue to give them the news that there son is gay i felt might not go down to well but it had to be done for Bob's sake mainly and to be honest if they didn't like it i don't care i have my friends there my family to and i have Mikey thats all i could ever ask for better than the ones i love.
Frank's POV:
Everyone was so quiet it was kinda funny as a quiet atmosphere allways make's me even more hyper than normal much to the dismay of the others as i couldn't help but speed around the bus knocking things over tripping over them and the braking something else which made them just scowl at me and me laugh even harder but i kinda regretted it when Mikey started crying because the tension had got to much and i really wasn't helping and then i got a lecture off Gerard and Bob saying thay i better shut up now or they'll chain me up outside like a miss behaving dog and that if i ever upset Mikey again that i would suffer for it they then went and sat down on either side of Mikey while he cried wrapped there arms around him and glared at me waiting for me to apologise to him "sorry Mikey i can't help it you know what im like one skittle would be enough for me to run a marathon " "its ok Frank im just nervous yeh know and i don't know why" Ray stroked Mikey's hair as if to say that everything would be fine and Gerard held him close and they looked like they were when they were children Gerard hugging Mikey after he had dropped his ice cream on the floor, this just made me feel worse i hated seeing my friends cry but it was even worse that it was me that had caused it. I thought now was the best time to make my exit so with a quick glance at Bob to see why he hadn't said anything he quickly looked up gave me an evil look and then went back to his game.
Bob's POV:
I just needed something to distract me from everything else it was my fault for all the nerves and tension they were doing this for me even though i don't think they were ready to. I didn't want to see there feeling's hurt just to make me feel good i wasn't worth that there happiness was the only important thing to me. I was playing on the Xbox and i didn't really know what was going on around me i didn't want to it would only make me feel worse than i already did. I would occasionaly notice somethings around me like Frank destroying everything around him like the tazmanian devil and then i noticed Mikey brake down into tears and Ray and Gerard jump up as Frank jumped back and they both yelled at him for upsetting Mikey this was my fault i was causing all this friction between friends i was piling so much pressure on Mikey and he couldn't take it and Frank really wasn't helping it angered me to see Frank apologise then whizz off again he turned to me and i glared at him momentarlly and then i went back to my game as Ray and Gerard carmed Mikey and told him everything would be allright but i had this gut feeling that not everything would be i was certain something would go wrong it was horrible to think and i didn't dare share my thoughts with the others.
Oh god i just looked at the clock it's almost 3 Gerard and Mikey's mum will be calling soon we had agreed to gather together on the couch and they would each use the phone in turn to face the ultimate judge that was there parent's.
Gerard's POV:
We are all gathered on the sofa as mum will be calling any minute i had Bob sitting next to me with Mikey on the other and Ray sitting next to him and Frank sitting on the other side of Ray. This was going to be a very difficult time for all of us.
"ring ring ring ring"
oh god its time
"ring ring ring"
"hello Mum"
"hey Gerard is Mikey there with you"
"yes your on loud speaker so you can talk to both of us"
" ok hey hunni"
'hi mum" Mikey replied
"mum me and Mikes both have something to tell you"
"ok but im guessing since you never both talk to me at the time that you are about to tell me that you are gay"
'yes how did you guess"
"ive suspected it for quite some time and im happy for both of you"
frank started giggling at how she had guessed. i through a pillow a him to shut him up.
"thanks mum but we have something else to tell you to its about Mikey"
" what is it darling"
i looked at Mikey to see wether he was going to say it but i don't think he was so i decided to do it for him
"umm well Mikey only told us a few days ago and we agreed its time to tell you for his sake more than anything'
"what is it is he ok"
"he's fine don't worry it's not that its the fact that Mikey wishes he was a girl"
"how do you meen he wishes he was a girl"
"i meen he likes to wear girls clothes, cross dressing you know"
" well im not sure i approve of that no infact im certain i don't Mikey you are a boy i don't mind you being gay not in the slightest but if you ever want to come home or see me and your father again you can not do this"
" but mum you allways told us to be ourselves and that is what hes doing"
"i don't care Gerard if he want's to stay my son then he can not be a filthy tranny you may come home but he cannot"
"if you don't except Mikey for who he is i don't want to see you again"
"fine i guess this is goodbye then"
'click"
i can't believe that, after all she had told us she goes back on her word and does this i was furious but my thoughts were interrupted by Mikey crying heart renching tears " Gerard why did she do that i want my mum back i want my mummy" i'd never heard him beg for her before i hadn't heard him call here mummy since he was 4 " Mikey im sorry, it'll get better i promise she'll change her mind come here" i pulled him into a hug " but i want my mummy back why did she do it Gee why i want my mummy" this had been to much for him way to much i was crying to now it wasn't from what she had said it was the fact that Mikey poor sweet little Mikey was begging for his mummy when i couldn't do anything to stop him i couldn't make her accept him I would never forgive her for hurting Mikey like this never.
Bob's POV:
Hearing Mikey beg for his Mum as he was held tightly by Gee who was also crying i realised this was my fault i was splitting up familys i had destroyed Mikey he admired his parent's so much and did everything they said and now they were no longer part of his life and it was all my fault and i couldn't even look at Gerard the one think that made him happy was seeing his brother happy and it was killing him to watch his brother cry and it was killing me to watch them both cry. I looked over had Ray who had tears falling down his cheeks and there was Frank who was just staring to much in shock to even cry i watched as Ray reached out to Frank and pulled him closer as he also put his arm over Mikey's back as he cried.
Ray's POV:
After a long time of carming Mikey who was still sobbing into Gerard's chest i decided it was time for me to face my doom i dialed my home number and let it ring.
"ring ring ring"
"hello"
"hi mum"
"oh hello Ray i haven't heard from you in a while"
"i know sorry but ive been busy"
"to busy to call home pfft any way what is it that you want as you must want something to call so unexpectedly"
"umm well i wanted to tell you something well umm im gay"
"what"
"im gay"
"fucking faggot"
"fuck you then"
"click"
i hung up on them i didn't care if that's what they thought that was there problem. "im sorry Ray" Frank said "its ok Frank i don't care ive still got all of you" "course ya have".
Bob's POV:
Now Ray had no one left it was all my fault he was saying he didn't care but i could tell deep down he did i could see the hurt in his eyes as Frank reached for the phone he gave me a weak smile and then turned away, why did i have to cause such pain for my friends.
Frank's POV:
My turn to call now despite what had happened to Gee Mikey and Ray i wasn't worried in the slightest my mum had never cared as long as i was happy then she was.
'ring ring ring'
"yo mum"
" hello Frankie darling how are you"
"im good mum how are you"
"im fine thanks for asking"
" good good i was just calling to tell you that im gay"
"fine by me Frankie is there anyone special i should no about"
"not at the moment mum but i'll tell you when there is though"
"good boy Frankie have fun on stage tonight don't get to badly injured"
"i won't mum, love you"
" love you to Frank ring again soon"
" i will bye "
"bye"
"click"
well that went well even better than i expected i couldn't help but have a beaming smile on my face i was sad for what had happened to the others but i was happy that my mum didn't mind and wanted to no if i had found my prince charming (if only) " come on guys its over with now you can move on if they don't like it tough we are a family what more can you ask for" i yelled out Ray looked up " he's go a point we are all family and we love each other we care for each other and today has proved that don't you think i meen we've had a fall but we are still closer then ever and we can get through this together and nothing is going to put us down now come on get up lets get ready to rock" "yeh" we all chourused together " group hug" i yelled and we all piled together hugging each other tightly "ok ok enough with the hugging i think i broke a rib" Mikey yelled and we all laughed loudly. This was the start of a whole new era for My Chemical Romance.
