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chapter 24 (i think)
(set a few weeks[dont ask how many}in the future)

Ray's POV:

Mornings were getting pretty much the same, we would fall asleep on the sofa the night before then me and Bob would be woken by Mikey needing the bathroom, Gerard would stumble into the kitchen looking for coffee and Frank could be found on the floor eating skittles or throughing them at some one and whom ever the unfortunate person was would end up punching him.
Mikey still had not improved at all and he was starting to get extremelly worried and depressed about it thinking he may never get his strength (no matter how minamal that was) back. Gerard was trying to get him to go to A&E but he was still refusing and there was no forcing him he could be stubbon as a mule sometimes.
Bob over the past few weeks had changed remarkably he had started dieting and exercising and had lost a considerable amount of weight he had cut his hair so it was short and spikey at the front and a really long fringe that swept after his right eye but the main change of all was how incredibly camp he had become i meen he was worse than Frank, Mikey and Gerard he was wearing more flamboyent clothing and was definetly more excitable than before it was cute to see but incredibly strange and diffrent in a good way. He had started wearing a slightly thick layer of eyeliner that made is stunningly blue eyes stand out against his blonde hair and i swear infact i am certain he was wearing lip gloss the other day, where he got that from i don't know but it suited him. Frank was finding it hysterical watching Bob do his make up in the morning and delibratly kept nudging him so he fucked it up, But Bob hadn't lost his fiery temper he wouldn't put up with Frank for long and would chase him off the bus and lock the door. The funniest time he did this was when Frank was parading around naked after waking up and when he was locked out a load of fans walked past and started taking pictures and asking for his autograph, Frank didn't talk to Bob for a week after that.
Mikey was sleeping after only just waking up again and Gerard was sitting next to him watching him with nervous glances. "Gee come on leave him when he realises that he really isn't well we can help him but untill them it is his choice leave him be" i told Gerard after several more glance at his kid brother, "but he's sick Ray he sick i've never seen him like this he has never slept so much in his life thats not like him he needs help but he won't let me go near him when i try to tell him to let us take him to A&E he just bites my head off and tells me to get lost. Ray i want to help him i want my baby brother back" Gerard was terrified for Mikey he was the only blood family he had left now and he was also his best friend and watching him lie there frial and broken was breaking his heart. Mikey has Gerard had said so many time was everyones like all of our kid brother we cared for him and looked after him we worried for him when he was ill we comforted him when he was sad and we held him close when that was all he needed when no words could express his nightmares, but there were other times when we could not help him he didn't want to be around anyone else but he didn't want to be alone either he would be sad and happy excited and scared and it was times like theese when Gerard was the most amazing person in the world, it was a time when he cared for nothing but Mikey and he would lay his life on the line to save him. "Gerard we can't do anything for him, yes i know hes sick i know he needs help but he has to want help to get it. Think about when you had an alcahol and drug problem you didn't believe you needed help untill you we almost dead but that changed you and you got th help you needed and its the same for Mikey we can't help him untill he admitts he needs it but why is he so scared of the hospital anyway" i asked him the last question cause even though i had known Gerard for ages he never really spoke about what happened to him in high school. Gerars looked deep into my eyes at that point "Ray you have to understand that what happend not only affected me but it affected Mikey maybe more than me and he must never remeber what happened it haunts him in his dreams every night you have to understand you can't talk to him about it" he placed his hands on my shoulder so that he knew how serious this was "Gerard you can tell me and no one will ever know i promise but i need to know if its putting Mikeys life in danger". Gerard looked at me again and sat back "it was in high school Mikey was a freshman (im not american and don't know theese things so don't kill me if i fuck up the year things) and i was a senior, it started on his first day",

[flash back] (this is gunna be fun to write but not to read sorry [the point of view will probs vary between gee and Mikey even though Gee is telling the story because its part Gerard telling Ray part Mikey dreaming])

"Mikey hurry up its time to go don't be late on your first day come on get up" i screamed up the stairs to my little brothers room. A loud crashing noise came from upstairs and my tall and unnaturlly (sp?) thin brother appeared at the top of the stairs. We were both wearing Misfits t-shirts and skinny jeans mine looking stupid cause i was far from skinny and Mikeys looking to baggy even though they were the smallest you could get even in womans sizes. "Here Gee i'm ready i think just need to find my glasses"he called as he tumbled down the stairs "there on your head Mikey look up see" i told him and pulled his glasses off his head and handed them to him. "Oh thanks Gerard umm have i forgotten anything else" he span in a little circle looking for something he may or may not have forgotten "don't worry Mikes it's gunna be OK just get that ass of yours out of the door NOW QUICK MARCH GO" i screamed in the best impression of a loud mouthed seargent. Mikey marched out of the door and climbed into my car "are you sure i didn't forget anything Gee" he asked again "only you brain Mikes only your brain" i joked with him and he slapped me on the arm "ooooooooh now that wasn't very nice now was it deary" i told him in a mock camp voice "shut up and drive Gee your the one who said we shouldn't be late". I laughed at his facial expression and started the car and drove out of the drive and to the school.
When we parked at the gate Mikey climbed out nervously and looked around. Some jocks watched us and yelled out "oh look the emo fag as got an emo faggot brother with him looks like we are going to have to teach him the rules" the biggest of the gang yelled and they advanced on us, this was definatly not the start i wanted Mikey to have. Mikey grabbed onto my hand as they got closer but thankfully we were saved by a teacher coming round the corner to see what the comotion was "in to class quickly boys come on hurry up" and the crown scattered. "Come on Mikey lets get you to class it won't be that bad come on " i pulled him in the direction of the main office but he was still frozen on the spot "Ger Ge G Gerard who were they" he pointed in the direction that the jocks had come from. "Don't worry about them i'll protect you from them if they bother you again" i promised him and he reluctently moved from where he was standing.
Mikey was in class 901 (my tutor from last year lol) his teacher was an evil old fart called mr harrison, he had never liked me and he would probably take it out on Mikey. I showed Mikey to his class room and told him to wait there for me at break and he opened the door and walked in. I only hope that nothing bad happens.

Mikey's POV:

I opened the door to my class and walked in there were loads of kids in there but it wasn't full so i wasn't late i scanned the room taking in every face of every person i noticed how many of them gave me dirty looks and wispered and pointed amongst them selves. "Name" an unkind voice called out and i looked round to the desk to see an ugly old man who must be my tutor sitting at the desk "umm Mmikey Way sir" more mutterings broke out across the room "ah another Way what joy" he called in an evily sarcastic voice "well lets hope your not as big a failure as your brother" he snarled "hey my brother is not a failure ....... sir" i added "sir" onto the end just so he didn't think i was speaking out of turn. Mr Harrison stood up towering above me "did you answer back to me boy" he growled "no sir i merley deffended my brother cause he is not a failure far from it" i squeaked but he didn't back down. "Well this isn't really a good start is it boy only just started and im already going to have to give you detention that will be half an hour after school for answering back and then another half an hour for being a typical Way" he ripped a pink slip off of a pad and handed it to me. I moved to sit down in my seat but some guy stuck his foot out and tripped me, the class broke out into fits of laughter "be carful where your walking you stupid boy" Mr Harrison called from the front. I picked up all my things and took a seat in the very back of the class on my own, this wasn't going to be a good year at all.
(break time)
The bell rang for break and the class stood ready to be dismissed and filed out noisely. I waited at the door for Gerard like i said i would and whilst i waited i listened to what was going on around me and all i could hear was people wispering say things like "look another emo fag" and "why is scum like that let into this place stupid faggot" i hadn't even spoken to theese people and they were already judging me. Then some dude walked past and punched me in the gut and walked away with a gang of snickeing friends in tow. I collapsed to the floor in pain "Mikey what happened to you" Gerard had arrived just a few moments to late but he helped me up and sat walked me out side to a tree in a corner with no other people could see us. "Some guy hit me i don't know who it was or why they did it but they just walked off" i sighed as i sat back against the tree. Gerard sat down beside me and i rested my head on his shoulder "so how was your first lesson" he asked curious to know how my first morning had been. I reached into my bag and pulled out my two detention slips and through them into his lap "what did you do to get theese in just two hours" he asked reading what they said "Mr Harrison said you were usless so i told him you weren't and he gave me that for answering back" i replied "and what about the second one" he asked unfolding the second slip "he said it was for being a Way i don't know" i sighed again heavely and closed my eyes. "Thats not fair Mikey all you did was deffend me and why have you got dust all over you" Gerard asked brushing the dust from my trousers "oh some bastard tripped me in class thats all" i muttered just as the bell rang for next lesson.
My next class was PE and i was not looking forward to it. I was no good at sports i wasn't strong i wasn't very tall or fast so i wasn't really good for anything and my class mates seemed to pick up on that instantly. I though it best for me to change in the toilets at the back of the changing room for two reasons. One i didn't like people seeing me without my clothes on and Two i didn't want to be out there with the others incase they decided to hit me again.
I changed quickle and packed my jeans and tshirt into my school bag and opened the toilet door to go to the sports hall upstairs but as i opened the door five jocks were waiting outside the door for me. "What were you doing in there you stupid piece of shit slittling your wrist like your emo brother" the leader jeered at me "i was just getting changed" i stammed back trying to dodge around them but one of the guys just held out his hand to stop me and pushed me hard into the wall "trying to escape were you fag" i sneered. I had no idea how i was going to escape this when there were no teachers or Gerard to come to my resuce. "That wasn't a very smart move was it cause you can't avoid us we have to show you the law of this place and what happens if you don't obay them and seeing as attempting to avoid us is one of them we are going to have to teach you a lesson" he told me with a hint of evil in his voice. "Please just let me get to class" i begged even PE would be better than getting beaten up by theese guys. "I don't think so faggot your only making it worse for yourself isn't he boys" the leader of the group called to his minions and they replied with an agressive "yeah". I backed slowly against the wall and they just moved closer untill there was no chance of my escape. A fist collieded with my stomach for the second time that day and then another hit me in the face breaking my glasses and im pretty certain my nose aswell i felt several more blows before everything was black and i fell to the floor but the beating didn't stop then.

Gerard's POV:

I was in my lesson when some kid came in to the class asking for me to go to the matron (there called matron in my school i don't know about america)
i got up and ran there as fast as i possibly could to the office and went in to find Mikey unconcious on the bed covered in blood and bruises. I clamped my hands over my mouth to stop from screaming and then i looked over at the matron "what happened to my baby brother who did this to him" i demanded fire burning in my eyes i was going to kill who ever did this to him. "Calm down Mr Way it is not helping your brother and we don't know who did this to him he was found in the bathroom not please take a seat and i will explain what is wrong with him". I took a seat next to my brother, his first day at a new school and already this had happened i hate this school. "Mr Way your brother has a broken nose and two broken ribs he has cuts and bruises covering his body and as you can see was knocked, he won't need to go to hospital but a few days rest at home is required. Now i understand you live alone with you brother" she asked and i nodded not looking away from Mikey. "Well then you will have to stay at home with him he can't be left alone at all ok". I nodded again as Mikey's eyes slowly flicked open "Mikey how are you feeling" he stared groggely at the ceiling then at me "my head hurts" he groaned "i know Mikes you took a nasty beating there do you know who did it to you" i asked so i could get revenge for hurting my brother. He thought about it for a second "i think it was thoose jocks in my PE class" rage bubbled up in the pit of my stomach as i thought of a million ways to kill them. "Right Mr Way i think its best if you take your brother home now and go straight to bed do you understand me Micheal no running about" i was thankful to get out of that place so i picked my brother up and carried him to the car. I lay him across the back seat with my jacket under his head "lay still Mikey we'll be home soon". Revenge would be so sweet and i wasn't going to lay a finger on the fuckers that did this.

(still a flash back but a few weeks have passed)

Mikey's POV:

Things hadn't got any better since i went back to school i'd been beaten badly many times by the jocks and the teachers had all decided they didn't like me high school definetly isn't all its cracked up to be.
Another day in hell was the first thing i thought as i walked through the classroom door that morning. Paper planes were thrown at me and two people tried to trip me up again. I sat in my seat in the back of the class and waited for break time to free me from this hell hole so i could talk to Gerard.
The lesson past rather quietly for a change none of the jocks bothered me much and they allowed me to leave the class unharmed. I went to the tree where i allways met Gerard and waited. About 10 minutes had past and he hadn't shown there was only 5 minutes left of break we wouldn't be able to talk if he didn't hurry up. The bell rang for lesson and Gerard didn't show i thought perhaps he had been held up by a teacher or something and i would see him at lunch so i picked up my stuff and went off to lesson.
Lunch came as fast as break and i made my exit from the classroom quickly and headed straight for the tree when i got there, there was the same jocks that had attacked me waiting for me. I turned hoping they hadn't seen me but they did and called out to me "OI faggot come back here now we got summin to show you that i think you'll want back". That so did not sound good and i really should have run but i would have got a worse beating if i did that so i followed them into the bathroom that was allways out of use. The door was slammed shut behind me and i imediatly regretted following them. They flicked on the lights and i saw what they meant about what i might want back there lyeing on the floor tied to the pipes was Gerard, he had a black eye and a gash on his cheek and was struggling to get free. One of the jocks kicked him in the ribs to stop him moveing. I ran at one of them screaming "what have you done to my brother lot him go now" i attempted to punch them but failed horribly. "This faggot brother of yours reported us to the principal for hurting you we have been suspended for the rest of the term so we thought it best to leave a parting gift for him and you can watch him get it knowing its all your fault" he clicked his fingers and the boys behind him moved forward to tie me up infront of Gerard, i tried to look away but they held my head. I stuggled harder to escape so the leader of the group turned back to me and kicked me in both legs and the stomach i screamed in pain as a kick connected with my face and once againn my nose and glasses were broken "watch what happend to people who don't obay the rules faggot" he screamed in my ear. He advanced on Gerard and kicked him hard in the stomach and some of his gang joined him as they all punched and kicked him. One of them pulled out a knife and they all laughed "slit his wrist he's probably does already" the guy said as he ran the sharp knife over Gerards arms and blood flowed freely from him and down the drain. Despite all this Gerard was awake but i could see the pain etched onto his face as they cut deeper into his flesh. I tried to scream but then they turned on me and jabbed the knife into my chest and everything went black.

I woke up in a white room everything was so bright and i could here a beeping noice but i couldn't see where from everything was blurry. Oh god i think im dead i was in the bathroom a minute ago, but wheres Gerard. I tried screaming for him but only a gagging noice came out of my mouth i lifted my hand up and felt tubes going into my mouth and nose, i ran my hand over my chest and felt little wire type things in little rows across my stomach. I tried to remeber what had happened but all i could think off was the bathroom and Gerards blood on the floor. Tears ran down my cheeks was he dead was i going to see him again did he survive and me die i wish i knew where i was. The beeping grew louder and faster and i heard a voice call out to me "Micheal can you here me do you know where you are" the tubs in my mouth were pulled away and i could talk again "an iii de..ad" i asked my throat was saw and i need some water and just as i thought it a cool glass was placed to my lips and i drank from it. "Not your not Dead your in hospital, you had some very serious injurys but you are going to be just fine" the kindly female voice told me. I was so glad that im not Dead but then i thought about Gerard "excuse me but um wheres my brother i want to see him is he OK" i asked before the nurse could leave the room she turned to face me i could just make out her facial features that she was quiet young, she placed a hand on mine "We found him just in time hes alive but hes in a coma you were to for the last few days you were both brought in 2 days ago and have been completly out of it since, he had deep knife wounds like you and a few broken ribs and nose but they are all patched up and when he wakes up he is going to be fine now rest and don't worry about him" she patted my arm one last time and left the room. The main thing was we weren't dead but Gerard was in a coma and that wasn't good i wanted my brother next to me this was all my fault he could have died and it would be my fault they got him cause of he tried to help me its my fault.

(a few days later)

I had been released from the hospital and was sitting with Gerard he looked so pale even for him but apart from that he was still my Gerard my big brother that looked after me, his bruising had gone down and there was no visible signs of damage he just looked like he was sleeping peacefully but i just wanted him to wake up i wanted to see him smile hear him laugh i want to be able to cuddle up on the sofa with him and watch movies like we did when we were little.
A few hours past and i was resting my head on Gerards hand when he gasped loudly and opened his eyes. Nurses and doctors came flooding in checking his pulse and all the other stuff they look for and then when one of the doctor said it was OK they removed the tubes from his mouth so he could talk then they exited the room as fast as they came in. "Gerard how are you feeling" i asked hugging his arms tightly scared that if i hugged him proparly i would hurt him. Gerard squeezed my hand "yes im ok i think what about you" he replied typical Gee more intrested in wether im OK rather than himself. "Im great now your awake ive been so worried its been a week Gee but they've arrested the bastards that did this and there all in jail its ok now" i started cryin onto his chest this was to much they had done this to him i had to watch him suffer i had to watch him flatline twice i thought i'd lost him twice my big brother my hero my savior "shh baby bro im fine don't cry like you said everythings is ok now".

(end flash back)

Gerard's POV:

I looked up at Ray as i finnished explaining what had happened tears were rolling down my cheeks and his "Gerard why didn't you tell me about this before i am so sorry you shouldn't have had to go through that you could have told us at some point oh im so sorry" he pulled me into a bone crushing hug. "Im sorry Ray i should have said i love you and i trust you but i didn't trust my self to be able to tell anyone i didn't want to relive that experience" i sobbed into his shoulder. "Shh shh its over now we can help Mikey and you never have to think about it again" i hugged him back as hard as i could and then we ripped apart as Mikey sat bolt upright screaming.