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ok in this chapter it will be the diary part ok and then in the next one if you get back to me with what pairings you want they should have some of that for you ok.
oh and some brackets are me some are from the fic but its obvious which is which
oh and again tehe if i get the names of whos reading whos diart muddled tell me cause there is to many to remember.

Chapter 43

(Gerard's POV)
*late evening*

We have all just finnished having a celebratory (sp?) dinner with Bob before we had our first band meeting since Bobs return.
Everyone was gathered round the table tapping there fingers on there diarys nervously waiting for me to start. "So guys you all know whats going to happen right" i asked and they all nodded "so can i have all your diarys in the middle keep hold of your pens you won't need them at the moment" i told them. They all placed there books in a muddled pile infront of them along with my own. "Right so what i want you to do is take a diary each, not your own, and then we will read it and anything you think is a worry or you can help with read out when its your turn ok" i explained. I reached out and took the book furthest from me and opened it, inside was a little drawing of a heart saying GD <3 MCR . The writing was very small and slightly messy i must have picked up one of Green Days cause i didn't regognise it.

*diary entry*

[i] Dear Stuart (which ever of you guys read this i can call my diary what i want)

Bob is recovering in hospital the doctor said he will be fine and if they think hes in the right mental state he can come home in a week or so.
Ray didn't come with us to the hospital, the poor sod needs a break hopefully a rest without us nutjobs there will help him a bit.
I don't really see the point in this diary cause im fine but i guess it could be fun.
Oh my god i feel like im talking to myself writing this, cool
Hello. why hello yourself handsome. why thank you your not to bad yourself. i know im a sexy beast aren't i. as am i dear friend.
Okay enough of that, although it was funny i don't fancy which ever of you lot are reading this killing me by the means of THE DEADLY DIARY. I can just imagine that when the police find my body one officer will say to his superiour "so how do you think he died sir" and he would have to say "well it appears he was brutally attacked by a leatherbound diary". That would be one hell of a way to die.
So what to talk about, what to talk about hmmm. I know. Hey guess what Billie Joe gave me a blow Job, yep i was the lucky one of whom he gave his first blowy to. Hey guess what i just thought of somthing i got a BJ from BJ haha i am so funny am i not.
any way i ain't got no more for you mister diary sir so bye bye for now maybe i will see you soon
xXmXx [/i]

That was so typically written of Mike well atleast he had fun writing it i guess.

(Mike's POV)

Whos did i get, i took it from the middle of the pile and i didn't see who put it there.
I opened it inside was a picture of a ninja turtle playing the drums. That made it kind of obvious to whos i got.

*diary entry*

[i] Dear Ninjaspaz

I can't believe i did it again, no infact i can't believe they saved me again i told them not to. And now i've got one hell of a pain in my leg, i wouldn't have that if they let me go are they just trying to make me suffer painfully till i die of old age.
They were there when i woke up pretending to be worried for me, as if they would care. Ray and Mikey didn't come and im not suprised who would want to see me im a hideous freak. I don't deserve them i can't believe i ever thought they could love me, i guess it just shows how little i really know. I am a drummer after all there allways the stupid ones who can't do anything except drum.
I am going to end it some how i don't care how long it takes me it has to end i can't hurt them anylonger.
*skips a few days*
Day 7
Ya know i think maybe it isn't such a good idea, maybe they do love me. Other wise would they come and visit me all day every day.
Mikey came back to he was really sweet he litrally ran in and hugged me today i was so happy to see him. Infact i was happy to see all of them i was actually happy for once in a long time.
The problem is i can still hear that voice its still there nagging. I want it to go away so much, its there all day and night telling me i have to die. But i won't believe it i WON'T i can't not now i want to get out of this place like right now it sucks.

Day 14

I'm going home today, there almost here i hope . I just want to get back lie down in my bed with my teddy and go to sleep, preffrably in some ones arms.
Oh got to go now i can hear manic giggles from the corridor. i wonder who that is *rolls eyes*
XxBoBbItxX [/i]

Poor guy i can't even begin to understand how he must be feeling. Hopefully we can help proparly this time. Atleast i can safley say he can fall asleep in some ones arms tonight.

(Frank's POV)

I got a diary with a picture of Mikey and Gerard in it so it was obviously one of the two way brothers. okay the writing was farley neat it must be Mikeys Gerard can draw but he can't write well.

*diary entry*

[i] Dear bunny

Umm well i don't know what to right really there is so much i want to say but i don't know whos reading it. Okay i'll do it this way
Gerard: if you are reading this i love you so much i never thought you would love me as much as i love you. I thought you would hate me for who i am so i pretended to be something im not. I thought that was what you wanted but i was wrong and you were there to show me how to be myself. Thanks babe i love you.
Frank: Short arse tehe allways there to cheer me up with you insane weirdness. But you showed me a diffrent side of you one that was vunrable and helpless. You trusted me to see you without the mask on and although i wasn't much help to you it gave me my faith in people back thank you and i love you
Ray: I'm sorry for what i put you through i didn't meen to. I should have realised it was to much for you to handle. First you had Gee with his alcholism and drug addictions, then you had me the tranny geek that kept making himself ill. And whilst you were sorting me out poor Frank got ignored completly and that made him sad and when Frank gets sad everyone is its like a chain reaction. And now you had to go through all that with Bob and that was my fault i pushed him to it. So over all, all i want to is im sorry and I love you Fro-man my hero.
Bob: I know it is my fault you did it, because you wanted to protect me but please don't ever do it again i love you to much. Your my big cuddly Bobby-bear, love you Bobby.
Green Day: i got the same message for all of you. you are a bunch of total loons and i love you for it. Oh and Billie Joe if its you reading this you have to give me a hug.
xXMikey<3YouXx [/i]

Ok so Mikey didn't really write his diary just left messages. How dare he call me a short arse its not my fault. And he is not a tranny and he did not make Bob try and kill himself. Poor little geek.

(Bob's POV)

The diary i picked had a drawing of a tiara and a picture of a guitar i had clearly picked up Franks.

*diary entry*

[i] Dear Pansy

Why is everyone allways telling me its going to be alright when its not. They treat me like im a kid, i may be the youngest but im still an adult and i can understand alot more than they think. Mikey is the only one that treats me like an adult but thats only because he is almost as young as me so he knows how it feels. I hate it i really do.
They never seem to be able to trust me with anything and i don't know why they have never even given me a chance to keep a secret for them so how do they know i won't. I trust them with my life i trust them more than i have ever trusted anybody so why can't they trust me.
We made cookies today mine had skittles on them, skittles are gooooood. We made them to take to Bob in the hospital. Things didn't go well though, he did it again i can't believe it. Right infront of us he sliced into his own body the blood went everywhere. I thought he was dead for sure when he fell to the ground but the doctors saved him again, i don't know what we would do with out him he really is the nicest guy ever.
What Mikey said as we waited for news was the worst thing i had ever heard he asked, why does every one want to leave him, i was terrible. Then he fell asleep right there and had to be carried back. He didn't wake up for ages afterwards, also Ray lost it that night he cried all the way back from the hospital and all night and for the next few days untill we were told that Bob could come home.
xXPrincessFrankieXx [/i]

Oh christy i didn't realise how much it must have scared them to see that. And Mikey how could he ever think that i didn't want to leave him i just thought it was the right thing to do. Ray cried over me i should never have done it i know that now i didn't want to hurt them.

(Tre's POV)

I got a diary full of drawings and sketches of comic book charactes they were also draw between all of the writing so i must have Gerard's book. He has drawn a little picutre of all of us to awesome.

*diary entry*

[i] Dear Music-Freak

Yes i know it was my idea to write in theese things but my mind is a blank.
Basically all i want to say is, guys you can talk to me about anything i meen it day or night im ready to listen. Remember that.
xXGee-BearXx [/i]

We already knew that Gee. Wow he really is a muppet sometimes its his idea he should write something. Ah well

(Ray's POV)

I have got Billie Joes book obvious because he wrote it in glitter on the front. Inside was a picture of Green Day altogether when they were younger, Awww Billie had curly hair.

*diary entry*

[i] Dear St Jimmy

Baisically I LOVE YOU GUYS all of you and i meen it there ya go im done for now.
Oh and Mike if you get mine Gerard knows i gave you a BJ, thanks a bunch for being so darn hot.
XxGayNerdxX [/i]

Looks like Gee isn't the only one who knows now is it. Bad luck Bill.

(Mikey's POV)

I have got Rays book inside there is a picture of when i straightened his hair with a sign saying NEVER AGAIN on it.

*diary entry*

[i] Dear Torosauras

Gee may be an idiot half the time but this was a stroke of genius.
okay so im sitting here watching over Mikey the poor guy is knackered.
I have blood all over me still its in my hair as well but im just to tired to get cleaned up now. I just want to sleep but i don't want to incase the others come back or Mikey needs me. So instead im just going to sit here writing this under the warm blanket Gee gave me.
Okay to start with. I cannot get the picture of what Bob did today out of my head its just sort of on a loop the way the blood sprayed out it was like something that would even make a vampire freak out. I just want him to be ok, I just want everything to be ok. I really love you guys.......... [/i]

It ended there he must have fallen asleep or somthing like that. Now i have that image in my head again. Eh i feel sick now.

(Billie Joe's POV)

I got a slightly scruffy book with the american idiot hand grenade on it. On the first page was a drawing of a cock and on the next page and on all the other pages. Wait a minute this is a flip book. Tre has done this he has made a flip book of some one tanking he is so disgusting and weird.

(Gerard's POV)

"So has everyone finnished reading" i asked them and they all nodded. " Ok so anything you want to point out" i asked and looked at Mikey who was sitting next to me. "Well i got Rays book and there wasn't much in there it sort of stopped half way through a sentence" he said. "Yes i fell asleep it was really cosy under that blanket" Ray told us smiling. "Ok well anything else Mikes" i asked him but he just said no and gave Ray his diary back. "Bob who's did you get" i asked Bob who was sitting next to Mikey. "I got Frank's book, Frankie no one treats you like a child on purpose we just forget sometimes i meen your so short its easy to mistake you for a little girl. And im sorry for letting you see that at the hospital, but Mikey no one wants to leave you ever i didn't want to i just thought thats what you wanted sorry all of you and i love you guys" Bob said. Mikey slipped his arm though Bob's and held his hand "i would never want that Bobby" Mikey told him and kissed him "thanks Mikes".
Ray coughed as he was about to speak. "I got Billie Joes and the only think in his diary was that he gave Mike a blow Job" Ray laughed and both Billie and Mike went red once more. Ok moving on quickly Frank spoke up "Mikey i am not a short arse thank you very muchly. And also Mikes none of what has happened is your fault it just happened don't blame it on yourself and you aren't a tranny Geek your just a Geek". "Oh Mikey don't blame yourself for things you shouldn't do that" i told him but Mikey just hid in Bobs shoulder.
"Yes well thanks for sharing that little nugget of information with us Frankie" i told him giving him a quick patt on the head as he tried to bite my fingers but failing. "Right i got Bob's book. Bobby if that voice ever tells you to try it again come tell one of us or try and ignore it we love you and don't want to loose you. I also never knew you had a teddy-bear" Mike said. Bob didn't seem to care about the teddy thing so Mikes revenge was pointless.
"Gee your a muppet thats all i have to say" Tre told me when it was his turn. "Hey what did i do" i asked him and he smiled "you didn't write anything in your diary" "yes only cause didn't have anything to write i was to busy trying to stop you squishing Frank".
"Billie you got Tre's i gather seeing as he is the only one left" i asked him. "yes do you wanna see what he did" he asked as he lifted up the book and flicked through all the pages showing the little cartoon Tre drew. "You are so clever sometimes Tre. Any way me last then, Mike don't have convosations with yourself your not insane and i like the movie plot you wrote it may be good enough for a feature film".
Everyone laughed as we gave each book back to its owner and got ready to go to sleep.


(Mikey's POV)

"Hey Bob can i sleep with you in your bunk tonight" I asked the blonde haired muscle man. "Sure you can Mikes its not like im going to say no to you is it" he said as we went to the bunk room where Frank and Tre were already fighting over who got to sleep next to the wall of there Bunk. Billie Joe and Mike, Ray and Gerard also appeared to be sharing Bunks that night i guess no one wanted to be alone when things were finally looking up.
I lay cuddled up in Bob's arms his teddy bear behind me forgotten. "Bob i love you goodnight" i kissed him goodnight before snuggling under the covers to get a decent nights sleep. "Goodnight Mikes i love you to sweet dreams" he wispered as we both fell into a peacefull slumber.

I finally finnished this chapter it took bloody ages cause i kept muddling everything up
i hope you like it
also the bit about whats in Tres diary is what my mate drew in the corner of hers its was rather funny at the time so i added it